D-Day (Night) turned out very well. Chicken Putanesca was a big success, but I think it needed a few tweeks here and there. He brought dessert. Angel Food Cake with fresh, sugared strawberries. I supplied the whip cream.
Speaking of whip cream, it was ONLY for dessert. We both decided using it ANYWHERE else would be too messy.....no further description here.
Next day: home made fresh banana bread + coffee + newspapers. He left at 8:00 a.m. So why do I have this empty feeling? Why do I feel disappointed? Is this "Friends with Benefits" arrangement simply not for me? Is it really enough or do I want to share my every day with someone else? Can I do that again? Will he always be what he is? I guess it's time to do some real soul searching.........
However, we've arranged to go away for Fri./Sat. at a casino up north at the end of August. Great deal: 1 night $59! Certainly doable. I guess I'll just enjoy myself for now and the upcoming Fridays until I say 'enough is enough' and move on. Seriously, I don't know what I want.......at this point.
Sorry this post is such a downer. In the meantime, a very nice man e-mailed me. We'll see where this goes....probably no where as they never answer back. Soooo tired of the games we play..........
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