Friends with Benefits??

As mentioned in a previous blog, Mr. EX and I had dinner last night and it turned out to be very, very nice.  He paid too.  Apparently with his treat for dinner, he thought he would get 'paid back' with a hop in the sack.  No siree baby was my answer.  I do have principles and I told him that flat out.  He understood.  We went to one of the local pubs for a nightcap, then I drove home ALONE!

I am so proud of myself that I did not succumb to his invitation to bed.  Although.....he seems different:  Quieter, pensive, humble.  He did say he was so sorry that he caused me so much pain when he 'dumped' me back in January.  We do plan to 'date' again as this is what he called what was last night's meeting.  News to me.  I thought it was just dinner with a friend.  Another phrase that came up (which I'm not sure I can quite put my arms around)  FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS.  I know what it means but am not sure if it's the right thing for me.  Here are some thoughts rolling around in my head.

1.  For some reason I can't get this guy out of my mind;
2.  Friends with Benefits might not be too bad simply because I really don't know if I want to make a
     commitment with someone now or ever for that matter;
3.  I had the only true love of my life;
4.  I like sleeping alone.

All of these make a good argument to favor Friends with Benefits.  However, if I'm taking that risk, how many "inkwells" would Mr. EX have dipped his nib in?  Hmmmmm.........


Anyway, we e-mailed this morning.  Planning another sushi dinner next month.  (I feel like I'm in a book club but this is a sushi club.)  We also talked about going for a drive to a casino in July.  Interesting stuff, but still uneasy and unsure.  I have to go into this situation with my eyes WIDE OPEN!